Found out that Huiwen and Cheryl waited for me yesterday and missed many buses. Just here to write a public apology. Sorry.
Choir got gold today. The CO members are all stressing out. All wanted more practices because we want to get gold or we will be forever looked down on. Lets strive hard for it ;).
I have brought upon myself all the misery that happened today. It all started when Tracy asked randomly just anyone to open the windows during History lesson. Lek volunteered to do it. I giggled jokingly that Lek like Tracy. After what seemed like 2 minutes, Brian said,"Huh?" I laughed out loud. Apparently, he heard it. Lek heard it too and started talking about how Rahman talked(good things) about me during the previous soccer match. I do not believe what they said. They continued saying and asked me to go and watch the soccer match today because he is in the team. They said something like,"Oh, if you go, he will chiong." I made an excuse and it is true that I need to go home and shit. After homework time, I kept talking about how badly I wanted to go home and shit and it makes me feel better, although I do not know why. Talking in the bus on the way home made me feel depressed and the reason is not very clear to me. Reached home. Switched on the computer. In the middle of collecting the clothes in the balcony, it rained. Used the computer. Instead of pissing off about the things that had happened today, I did construsting things like changing my blogskin. Love it. Isn't it nice? Felt better after that. My father reached home. Nagged at me to bathe. Found out our class lost the game 0-1. What I know is that Aimran got hurt. Wenbin and Lek was very sad about it. While watching Dolphin Bay Lovers(or whatever you call it), my mother 'scolded' me. She asked me why I did not keep all the clothes(+ the one in the kitchen). Told her that it rained. She said after I have collected the clothes in the balcony, I should have collected the one in the kitchen as it had just rained and the clothes were not wet yet. Quarrelled over that issue. Cried. She said that she was just 'informing' me that I should collect the clothes if this kind of thing should happen again.
In times lke this, I feel like hiding in a hole so that no one can see me, but I cannot. I do not have my own room, which I can just lock myself up. God is my only asylum. He is the only one that I can forever rely on and trust. I am really glad that I know that He is always with me in good and bad times. When I am happy, He is there to share my joy. When I am sad, He is there to listen to me although He already knows what I am thinking even before I tell him. He is a great father and friend. He knows what I want and does things for me if the things I want is right. Love Him.

thanks for everything