After watching so many shows, one thing I learnt is not to give up, no matter what. If you know what you are doing is correct, just continue doing it even when others don't agree with you. I think it also states somewhere in the bible where someone keeps on seeking justice from the king. The king actually didn't care about her, but he finally could not stand it and made sure that justice is done for the woman.
In the course of life, it is inevitable to come face to face with many big and heavy obstacles, but once you overcome them, you become stronger little by little and your character builds up until you become invincible. OK the last part is an overstatement but it somehow leads to this. I know I keep on blabbering about how others are better than me and become envious and then having low self esteem. When you see someone better than you, it is not that you are just not good, it is just that the person actually made an effort to improve themselves with self disciple in action in their life. I knew that in my subconscious mind but, well all I can say is that I am lazy.
I have met up with many obstacles and I regret not giving my best to overcome it. I just cry and give it up. However, somehow I can find encouragement from the people around me, and I know God is at work. Somehow, I managed to get to this point of my life because of all the encouragement and God's help, which is better than what I am expecting. I need to change, not to give up easily when really what I am doing is right. Is that my vision? LOL. Seriously, don't know. I really don't want to have any regrets anymore in my life, and the first step is really self-discipline which is what pastor curtis (I think that is how it is spelt) said yesterday. People gambatte with me ba.

some day, i want to be able to write a whole paragraph in japanese =)