This spirit is inside me long enough. Today, I really feel that it is getting worse. I could not communicate with God properly(not that I have done it properly before but today is the worst). My handwriting was extremely sloppy when my aunt asked me to write down some pointers to do the powerpoint slide. On the contrary, my sis handwriting was extremely nice and she wrote down the pointers faster than me even when writing so nice. This is solid proof of my extreme sloppiness. I am also so sian to do things that people 'force' me to do, even when there is an incentive. What the ... I couldn't be bothered about everything I do and I was thinking that is good. Because this is called giving them all to God and let Him do everything. I know this is extremely wrong. What should I do?

continue in prayer?