06S19 went out for ice skating today. However, we realised only when we reach there that there is a international ice hockey competition today. So we discussed for very long before we decided to go play pool. I learnt how to play pool because of a good teacher, darryl. =) He is very patient with me, something that I don't think I am good at. Then we went to pasir ris park after a long long long discussion. The guys climbed the spiderweb thing and then we rented bicycles. We rode until it was dark. Then they were speeding to the rental shop. I was like so far behind.
Then when I was struggling to keep up with them, I remembered the incident where I was lost because I was trying to follow my cousin who was so far in front. There was someone behind me, my aunt and another cousin. In the cycling case today, johnathan, hui ying and kenneth was behind me. I was stuggling to keep up with the cousin in front and lost her while I can be walking slowly with my aunt and another cousin behind. This was the reason I got lost. However, the cousin that was at home rode his bicycle to look for me and brought me home.
The 2nd incident was at the sec3 pahang camp. I was busy following my friends that were so far in front of me that I can see no one in front and behind me anymore. There was another group behind me but I did not wait for them and tried to catch up with those in front. Thank God I saw my classmate and his friends and a teacher somewhere near me, so I followed them. There was 1 obstacle somewhere in front and thanks to my classmate, I overcame it. Now, it is this incident. Thank God I was able to catch up with them and reached the destination safely.
I think God wants to tell me through these incidents that I must do my best to get close to God. It is not easy to go throught the narrow gate of heaven and I must work hard to go through it. God and help me time and again, but without me working hard, I cannot succeed. Sacrifices have to be made. Another thing is that I think God wants to remind me that there is no such thing as sitting on the fence, lukewarm, average etc. You can only be either in front or behind. There is no such thing as in the middle. If you don't improve, you will deteriorate.
Another thing. I started to think about the drama series that I have watched. Most of them had their plot revolving around 2 girls who like 1 guy. I always thought that it will not happen to real life and now I realised that what I always thought is wrong. I think if this kind of situation happens to me, I will do like some of the girls in some series did-giving up. I think that I do not have to snatch for someone who really loves me. If I really need to snatch, it only means that we are not meant to be. Giving up is the one and only choice.
God, i am so sorry. please forgive me. 
