My mind is still a blank. When I read the battlefield of the mind for teens, my mind either blanked out or became more corrupted. Went for disciple class last sunday and had a small talk with jie serene. Told her about that and she said that happened to her too when she read the battlefield of the mind. She said this is the devil's doing, and that I have to pray about it when reading the book.
Went to uncle hua ching's house in the afternoon. Some things I learnt.
- During moses's time, 12 people were sent to scout out the land that God wanted to give the Israelites. Among them were 2 people called joshua and caleb. 10 people came back and said bad things such as the people living there are big and strong, they cannot defeat them. However, joshua and caleb said good things such as the land is great-the fruits are very good, they should capture the land. Life is like that. God has great things in store for us, like my upcoming competition. We can win it, but I chose not to believe and be discouraged. I shall not now.
- If God is not with you, whatever you do there will be no deliverance. I can type all the lessons I have learnt from God's messengers, however no one will understand and there will be no breakthrough if God is not with me when I am typing them.
I let the kids play the erhu and the head broke. I was not angry or sad when I knew the head broke, because it was quite common. Futhermore, jie serene and my uncle promised me that they will get it repaired. However, I sat by myself after that and thought too much. I cried and it indirectly let the adults know I have problems in my life. I guess God used this incident to help me ask for help, for I have a Pharisee spirit in me. I thought I could handle everything on my own, but I cannot. Judging is my weakness too. I had a mini deliverance, but it didn't help much. I think I am hurt very deeply.
save me 
