It is amazing how God works. People just suddenly get together to talk about God. That's what I think about how my aunt got her disciples. God is almighty, and He wants us to know that better/more as we get closer to Him. That's how I am thinking now. I just feel so weak, cannot take any hardships. Today, had this service skills methodology lesson. Finally got through the whole day, but this is just the beginning, and I am already feeling beaten and the road to failure is closing in on me. However, my mind is thinking otherwise. I don't know which one is true. I want what I am thinking in my mind to be right, but on the other hand, I want to lead a spiritual life. That - is ideal.
I know practice makes perfect, as in my case of touch typing (msn), maths (maths papers), memorising lyrics (singing) and probably more. However, to think back, I could not have made it here without God - directly and indirectly. (It seems like I am repeating the same thing over and over again) Moral and sometimes physical support from my family members help a lot. It is God's grace that I am in such a good family. And when I can talk to no one else, mostly because they are too busy, I am (in most cases - forced) to talk to God. After that I would really feel much better, although God knows that I am using Him, for He so loves us. There are things that we can only talk to Him to be 'released', for only He knows and understands what we feel.
He humbles His servants before glorifying them.
I want to love Him and spend time happily with Him.
I want to lead a spirit-filled life!