Ice age is nice. The baby is cute.

Woke up this morning feeling neutral, until my dad ask me why I did not teach my brother how to do his homework yesterday. I just said I did not want to teach. My dad said he spent so much for me to study and in the end I did not teach my brother the knowledge I had absorbed in. Without thinking, I just said I did not plead him to let me go to school in the first place. I said that I don't want the knowledge that I aquired. Almost immediately, I regretted what I just said. I asked for forgiveness from God and at the same time, I started thinking. What do I have in use for the knowledge I aquired in school? I could not think of anything. I don't even know what I want to be in the future, what God had in mind for me. I have no purpose in life, at least I do not know what purpose I have in life for now. I want to learn everything and I don't want to learn anything. I don't know if it is because today is my birthday and that I am now at a age that I want to find myself. I saw the ugly side of me. Even if I saw the beautiful side of me, I guess I did not know that that is a nice side. My mind is corrupted by the worldly desires, not the desires of God. I want to find God, I want to find my purpose in life. On Saturday, my aunt prayed for me-for my heart's desire to be fufilled(going overseas with co) and for me to get all A's for my o'levels. Not to forget to pray for me for God to tell me what school He wants me to go to. Did my homework today while having the thoughts of finding myself. I felt stupid after I argued back with my dad that I did not want the knowledge that was given me. As in I suddenly could not find the answers that I needed to do my homework. I really regretted what I said. One thing is for sure-I need to find myself, although I am not a male. Heard many stories, ok only one, from my aunt that males just want to find themselves at a certain age. This means that it is typical of males and not females to do that. Found out that Aimran is one such male =). Does it mean I have male hormones? LOL. Still haven't completed my homework.
Thanks people for wishing me and giving me birthday presents. I received many smses wishing me a happy birthday from last night. Ong huiyan, huiwen, wanting, esther, cindy, tracy, henry, lishean. Others are in Friendster. Some are in msn. Eileen, mabel, izyan, dempster. For the acknowledgement of presents, I have already written it on respective days in here.

happy birthday to me!