These few weeks, I have been praying for a transformation in me, to be more like Jesus Christ, pure and blameless. Well I guess I am happy that my prayers are answered. For starters, I think I am starting to hear God's voice again, that is good. Furthermore, I am proved wrong. Last sunday, after the Yahs have shared their testimonies, I was thinking that it is not important to believe. Praying and without believing will still get you somewhere, as in your prayers will still be answered. But now, I have been proved wrong. I prayed for the computer to be well again, since it suddenly shut down on me these few days, but it is not answered until just now. I kept on using the previous experience to pray - that God is able to heal the computer, just as He healed the lao kock kock film camera when I brought it to China with me on April. However, it was of no use. Yesterday, before I started praying for my computer because it shut down on me again, I emailed my junior saying that I should be embarrassed because of me being the section leader despite my lack of skill in playing the erhu. After that, I kept on praying for the computer to be healed, but to no avail. I felt that I should ask for forgiveness for typing that sms because God knows all knowledge in heaven and on earth. And being His child, I am entitled to all these. In Ephesians 1:8, it is written, "that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding." I already have that wisdom. It is given to me. I should not be depressed and keep on putting myself down. God is with me always. Although I am faithless, He is faithful, and I will succeed in life because He walks me through. He knows what is good for me and have already planned my life for my good, as written in Jeremiah 29:11. And I did, therefore I can be here typing using my computer now.
Faith is very important. We will die without it. No doubt as young Christians, He will do all things to win us back, to help us trust in Him by creating many miracles in our lives even without us believing in Him. But at 1 point in time, He wants us to grow in Him, to just put our faith in Him, leaning on Him and expect everything to be done even without us interfering in it. He wants to work many more miracles in our lives and to show the whole world that He prepared everything for us, that we are living a spiritual life, not a worldly 1; that we succeed because of His power and grace, not by our own hands, so that no one can boast, that all the evidence of our causes of success point towards Him. His name will be known throughout the world. Blessed be His name!

1 Chronicles 5:20
...He answered their prayers, because they trusted in him.

seriously, i should start doing my vision and timetable up properly and stop procrastinating