I know I have this inner joy in me when I learn something new. Realising something that I didn't know is very satisfying for me. However, after I learn about some things, I feel like I shouldn't have even tried to learn it. I feel that what I have learnt make me see the ugly side of the world more, and that made me not want to learn anymore. But, I know I should not feel this way. I am a Christian. As 1, I should know what devil's schemes so that I can defend myself and not fall into their trap. I should not be ignorant about evil. I should still feel happy that I learnt something that I can equip myself with the necessary things to save myself from death.