Yup super uber lazy me. I felt like sleeping most of the time, don't feel like doing my project, can't be bothered with co people, felt like dying during project meetings blah blah...
Cannot take it. It is taken hold of me! What should I do?
However, for things concerning church, I do them with so much joy and with no disinterest. Weird huh. Was thinking if it is because it is related to PowerPoint or now to think of it, a no brain job? Not to insult God and the person who asked me to do it though. But maybe no brain in a sense that God is the one doing the work ba, since I have no confidence of myself doing it well and asking God to take over so as not to ruin the whole Christmas drama thing.
Probably, I should start asking God to take over all of my projects...
speaking* God, I put all my projects into your hands. I know with all my heart (even if I don't want to acknowledge it) that I am seriously like nothing. A piece of shit that can be stepped on and pushed around. When I try to take over, all seems to breakaway. But when I let go, the whole world starts moving. It makes me feel so extremely useless, but deep in my heart, I know that whatever happens, my group mates will not 'badmouth' me for the peer evaluation. I don't know why, but although I know I am doing almost nothing, I feel that my group mates think that I am doing a lot. Don't know for sure is it this peace that You has given me, or my wrong impression. You just want to humble me huh. What should I do? I don't really have the discipline to set time aside to spend with You and I know that I am departing from You, at least this is what I think. God, You promised to stay with me and guide me to to success. I know You will not break that promise, but it is with conditions attached. Talk to me, tell me what I need to do Lord. Thank You Jesus.

I still have not received that word lar!