I guess this thing should have sunk into my spirit long long ago, but no, I don't think it did. It just sunk into my spirit. Well just typing an sms can be a sign of love.
Time and thumb strength used to think and type the sms in the way that how you want people to feel it. Yup - Love.
Just taking time to talk to someone - Love.
Spend time buying something for that someone - Love.
Spend time to think of the ways you can make that someone happy - Love.
Thinking of that someone for a few seconds even when your workload is drowning you - Love.
Spend your whole day thinking how to get close to this someone - Love.

Well, what you love might not be a person, it might be your hobbies, sports, bad habits - just anything.
Singing in the toilet or just anywhere on the streets - Love.
Well, if I would just love God like that, His name shall already been known on where passed by before.
Watching drama series late into the night - Love.
If only this love is channeled to God, how happy would He be?

What is important between 2 people is respect and mutual understanding. Of course, the most important is love. Love does not judge, therefore leading to respect. Love does seek to know what people are feeling and thinking. As much as it is undesirable, feelings are the focal point in most people. Moreover, love is trust. We know the person inside out and believes that he/she is not this kind of person. Knowing how each other feels and trusting him/her completely lead to mutual understanding.

How am I loving God when I find reading the bible tiring? How can I say that I love God when I don't know Him, doubting that He protects me and leads me to the right path? Am I even loving Him when I forget to say grace before meals?

Feelings based on outward appearances will soon fade away. One sided love will not stand. It is of no meaning when one is always giving and another is always demanding and receiving. It takes 2 hands to clap. I cannot walk straight when I am always the one receiving and not giving, because I will never learn to appreciate and experience what true love is. It is not a sense of achievement when you know that you are doing the right thing. It is a sense of comfort and warmth when you see God and others are enjoying and benefiting what you have sacrificed for them. True love is about giving, not receiving, which is what the Christmas spirit is all about. Time is nothing when spent alone, but it is everything when spent with people.

I don't want to lose my calling. I want to love God.