Now, let's welcome the all so common selfish post! All my all so common weaknesses exposed time!

1. self-righteousness
   
2. leading to being judgemental
   
3. pride
   
4. lust

Well, should I say that these are all or are the main ones only? Anyway, if I didn't remember wrongly, Paul said that we should boast about our weakness. I couldn't really remember the reason he said but I think it was in the lines of this is where God will manifest His power. Extra grace is given to me to overcome all these! I have a very vague memory that I have typed this in this blog for umpteen times!!! But, I am an overcomer. And to be an overcomer, I must have weakness, if not, what to overcome? Wahaha! Isn't that funny? It is amazing how truths can be entertaining. How I wish all truths are like that.

The "It is not my problem" syndrome has been getting stronger recently. I have been saying countless of sorries without meaning it even a bit. How hyprocritical I have become. I finally understand why this sentence "让我说的每一句话，发自我心田" is so meaningful. Life is so empty and meaningless without me meaning what I do. Again, how many times have I exprienced this stage and gone back to it again? When can I just grow up and mature and going back to eating baby food such as cereals? I know it is nice to eat, but everyone grows out of it! Why not me? I am still craving for baby wheat cereals, literally. How hard it is to be innocent like a child, but wise to know evil and overcome/avoid it. On the other hand, how easy it is to behave like a child (regression I think), sleep, eat and do nothing else.

Sometimes I think that I am better off being an animal. What I do is what God gives me as instincts. No wrongs that I do will be condemned, afterall I am not given the discrition to make decisions, no responsibility given to me. I will still go to heaven and be with God and on Judgement Day, I am not judged. But then again, that is why human successes are highly honoured. People are praised and rewarded for whatever good we do and we have the greatest peace and gratefulness to God when we finally meet Him. In all, we learn to appreciate Him more and more. That is why we have great satisfaction when we overcome the devil - 苦尽甘来。