I don't understand.
I want to understand.
I don't want to obey.
I need to obey.
I am sick and tired and need help.
I don't want help.
I need help.
I have no time to spend with God.
I need to spend time with God.
I felt like sleeping.
I should not sleep.
I hate me.
I should not.
After all, no one ever hated his body, but he feeds and cares for it.
Love your neighbour as yourself.
I am a selfish, green-eyed monster, oblivious to surroundings, gossiper, killer of men, half-believer, stupid, helpless, useless person. Yup this is who I am/was, NOT what I am going to be.
Here I proclaim, I am going to be a holy moley person! Strict training will not come to waste.
kill be, burn me in the holy fire, refine me like silver and gold