*.* Chinese o'levels *.*
I really must thank God for not letting me be so nervous until I can't think. Honestly, I wasn't even nervous. Thanks God. Completed the paper successfully without any major problem. I really wonder how can val with the headache and tracy with the fever complete the whole thing. I really pray that they can get A1 and me too of cause. Met marie on the way home. Talked for as long as possible. We were laughing most of the time. Went back home. Ate lunch. Slept the whole day. Woke up to bathe and eat my dinner. What an uninteresting life. LoL.
I cheered with joy @ | 9:38 PM
*.* tomorrow... *.*
Tomorrow is the chinese o'levels. So why am I here? I am here to share the things I learnt in church today. =)
Today Pastor Gorden(is it spelt like this?) told us all about love. Wo men dou you ji lu, zhi shi que shao dong li. Love is a form of motivation. God loves us with his unconditional love, and we should love him back with the same unconditional love. In this society, what we gained is knowledge, but not wisdom. He talked also about parenting and maintaining relationships. He prayed for me for my o'levels tomorrow. Haha I feel so blessed.
Went to aunty annie's house for lunch. After lunch, most of us are ministered. I learnt about lots of things which I don't know how to put it in words. When my auntie prayed for me, she knew that I hated myself. I was suprised. She said many of us hate ourselves because of the sin that Adam committed. The bible says to love God with all our mind with all our soul and with all our strength. It also says to love our neighbour as ourselves. If we hate ourselves, how can we love our neighbour?
I know I have learnt many more things but I guess I forgot or don't know how to phrase it out. If I can, I will record the events of the whole day for all of you. Then I can sell the tape and make money. Won't that be nice? =D I know how to create business. Aren't I clever?
love you guys and girls loads I cheered with joy @ | 4:41 PM
*.* Haiz... *.*
I miss annie. Don't know if she misses me...
Honestly, I should freak out for my chinese o's, but instead I am freaking out for other subjects, or is it? I don't know myself. I don't know why. Devoid of feelings.
I cheered with joy @ | 4:58 PM
*.* Phlegm *.*
I hate phlegm.
I am still weak.
save me! I cheered with joy @ | 7:21 PM
*.* fever *.*
2 days ago`I felt sick the moment geography period starts. I asked abigail to touch my head to see if I got fever because I touched hers and had a feeling that I was having fever. After she touched my forehead, she said that there was nothing wrong with me. Oh well. Ok, I still did not believe her. Tracy did the same thing. She said I had fever. Yeah! Maybe I can don't go to school the next day. During the chinese homework time, I felt that my legs have no strength in them. I felt very sick. Before going home, both Tracy and Abigail said that they will help me collect my homework if I did not go to school the next day. How sweet of them. When going up bus 10, I saw isabell, huiwen and xin yi. When I said I felt like I have no strength, they volunteered to help me take my things. Another few sweeties that I must thank. When waiting for bus 15, prayed to God for bus 15 to come quick because I was feeling really sick and need urgently to go to the toilet. Soon enough, 15 came. Thanks God. He really takes care of me. Love God. After bathing, watched dolphin bay. Then slept until 10+, then slept in my room until next morning. My mother slept on my brother's bed beside me and took care of me the whole night. Love my mom =) Did I mention my sis called and when she found out that I was sick, called mom for me and told her about it. My mom then called every now and then and asked me how I was feeling. My brother also did not agitate me =).
yesterday`Stayed home. My temperature was the best of the whole day. 38.7°C. I spent almost the whole day sleeping and staring into space. Ok maybe just the television right in front of me. Mind you, the television was not on. This is the first time I lived a day practically without electricity, except for the heater for bathing and the light at night. My highest temperature that day was 39.3°C. That night was very hard for me. I couldn't really sleep. Woke up at 12 to go to the toilet and eat something. I was too hungry.
today`I woke up and saw black rings under my eyes. I am still feeling very hungry. Thank God I recovered today. I do not know if I could take it any longer.
God, family, friends I cheered with joy @ | 11:39 AM
*.* ss *.*
Social Studies structured essay questions-7/25. Pathetic.
Spent more than one hour to reach home starting from the bustop opposite the school.
how? i am feeling sadistic I cheered with joy @ | 4:37 PM
*.* ...ok... *.*
It seemed like it was just yesterday that I blogged. There I was in chinese lesson wondering why time travels so slowly, here I am wondering why time has gone so fast. End of this month, about 2 weeks away, we are going to take our chinese o'level paper 1 and 2. And I still haven't really prepared for it.
Wednesday will be the end of the common test. Looking forward to it and not. Today I just realised that the e-maths paper 1 was 2 hours. In the middle of doing the questions, I wanted to give up. I was like so sian and the answers I got were so funny. I did not of cause, although I very much wanted to. In the end, as expected, I did not finish the paper. On Wednesday, there will be e-maths paper 2 and the duration is even longer-2 and a half hours. I don't know if I can take it, but I know I must no matter what. God please help me. The thought of giving up in the o'levels is real scary.
Mr Eng went through the last of the physcis paper 1 questions. I just passed. This is not good for me, not at all. I know I can do better. If this is what I am going to get for my o'levels, I will regret it all my life. Life is getting real hard as one grows older. I am so helpless. I want and I need God to be my only pillar of support.
may God help us all in the o's I cheered with joy @ | 9:32 PM
*.* just pondering *.*
Today's paper was a disaster. Why did I repeat my mistakes all over again? Why am I not learning? Why why? I am really stressed for the first time of my life as long as I can remember. The O'levels. It is supposed to be the ordinary level, but why is it just so difficult, or rather taxing? I really do not know why this exam in Singapore is so different from other countries like Malaysia. I heard that the Malaysians learn cumulonimbus clouds which we learnt last year for their A'levels. Is our standard high or their standard low? Enough from what I heard from my "kor".
I was looking out for quotes to complete my Civics and Moral Education project. Got one great quote for all of you people out there. By George Macdonald. To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved. There are still lots of other great quotes out there on trust, one of the values that I treasure the most. http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/trust.html Go check it out. There is bound to have some quotes that you have experienced in your life up till now.
God bless and take care I cheered with joy @ | 8:35 PM
*.* snail *.*
I went out of the block. *crack* Stepped on a snail. The shell broke. It died. I killed it! I am a murderer!
super cold examination hall I cheered with joy @ | 6:55 PM
*.* Deteriorating *.*
You did it on purpose. That is called purposely.
deteriorating I cheered with joy @ | 6:12 PM
*.* baby *.*
My baby cousin was born at about 9pm today =). He is a boy. Maybe we are going to visit him tomorrow, and my aunt of cause. MAYBE. Glad to hear that both of them are safe and sound.
Got back my Add-maths common test today. Got 47/80. Not good, but I am going to do better.
Got the best price of JJ's album today =D.
Use deodourant. It smells nice. Apply it at ur underarms =).
i need money... I cheered with joy @ | 10:39 PM
*.* V *.*
Yeah! I did not sleep in school today!
I am starting to get interested in humanities. I don't know why but I had a sudden feeling this afternoon that I love Geography and History. Geography because in geography lesson today, everyone was laughing and having lots of fun. Plus Miss Neo was the invigilator for today's geography lesson. She seemed quite happy with what she saw =). Today's history. I feel that I have learnt something. While some people still don't like Mrs Verma, I think she is ok now. She is quite lenient with us if you just sit down and think about it. As the chinese saying goes,"xin jing zi ran liang". We just have to sit down and forget about how we hate her and think about all the things she had done for us and you will find out how good she is. If we just think about how we really hate her, we won't be able to see her good points. Just like today. She did not criticize us when we do the source base question not up to standard. Instead she took the trouble to explain to us what we did wrong and careful not to show any malice intent against us. If it was Miss Neo who saw all these answers, I think she will scream and shout or even cry because she used so much time in teaching us the skills. Come to think of it, Mrs Verma is quite strong in the sense that she did not show her weakness to anyone she teaches. I am sure that she was upset for many times because of the results we got. But she did not breakdown. She is quite a good teacher I think =).
Saw 2 big dogs today on the way home. I guess one is a female and the other is a male as one is smaller than the other. If I am not wrong, they are of the same breed. They have speckled faces-black and white. How cool is that? =). From far, they looked like snow dogs, but in fact they are very fluffy. So cute x). Love at first sight. xD
My brother brought 3 girls back home. Isn't he attractive? xD But honestly, my first impression of them is not very good. Pretty much because they are very much like me-shameless.
have to study for tomorrow's chinese paper 2... I cheered with joy @ | 5:20 PM
*.* thanks *.*
Received more presents now. Thanks hongkun, abigail, valerie, aiysha, aimran, meryl, esther, lishean, yee chuan, qi en, yvonne, tracy, michelle, huiyan, ifana. =) If I've missed you, please tell me. =D
Happy birthday annie!
Happy birthday qi en!OK. Last night was the night I slept the earliest in 'history'. I still don't understand why even though I slept at about 10 pm last night, I still had to sleep for 2 separate lessons today. At the beginning of the day, I slept in physics class while still studying for the social studies common test. The next lesson I slept was during history. I sat down without moving and before I know it, I was already asleep. I got to have self control. If I can't, I guess I just have to use external factors like sweets or water to keep me awake. Pray for me please.
I cheered with joy @ | 10:37 PM
*.* looking... *.*
Ice age is nice. The baby is cute.
Woke up this morning feeling neutral, until my dad ask me why I did not teach my brother how to do his homework yesterday. I just said I did not want to teach. My dad said he spent so much for me to study and in the end I did not teach my brother the knowledge I had absorbed in. Without thinking, I just said I did not plead him to let me go to school in the first place. I said that I don't want the knowledge that I aquired. Almost immediately, I regretted what I just said. I asked for forgiveness from God and at the same time, I started thinking. What do I have in use for the knowledge I aquired in school? I could not think of anything. I don't even know what I want to be in the future, what God had in mind for me. I have no purpose in life, at least I do not know what purpose I have in life for now. I want to learn everything and I don't want to learn anything. I don't know if it is because today is my birthday and that I am now at a age that I want to find myself. I saw the ugly side of me. Even if I saw the beautiful side of me, I guess I did not know that that is a nice side. My mind is corrupted by the worldly desires, not the desires of God. I want to find God, I want to find my purpose in life. On Saturday, my aunt prayed for me-for my heart's desire to be fufilled(going overseas with co) and for me to get all A's for my o'levels. Not to forget to pray for me for God to tell me what school He wants me to go to. Did my homework today while having the thoughts of finding myself. I felt stupid after I argued back with my dad that I did not want the knowledge that was given me. As in I suddenly could not find the answers that I needed to do my homework. I really regretted what I said. One thing is for sure-I need to find myself, although I am not a male. Heard many stories, ok only one, from my aunt that males just want to find themselves at a certain age. This means that it is typical of males and not females to do that. Found out that Aimran is one such male =). Does it mean I have male hormones? LOL. Still haven't completed my homework.
Thanks people for wishing me and giving me birthday presents. I received many smses wishing me a happy birthday from last night. Ong huiyan, huiwen, wanting, esther, cindy, tracy, henry, lishean. Others are in Friendster. Some are in msn. Eileen, mabel, izyan, dempster. For the acknowledgement of presents, I have already written it on respective days in here.
happy birthday to me! I cheered with joy @ | 5:21 PM
*.* Happy! *.*
Can anyone believe it? My brother is thinner than me. His waist is smaller than mine. It's true =O. Learnt a way to measure ur waistline ie. measuring the neck =).
Went out today to celebrate my birthday. My dad treated us to a vegetarian restaurant. It's a buffet. Very expensive one. Today`Adult $13, Child $9. Their meaning of child is someone below the age of 9. Somemore must add another $6+ to the bill because of service charge. Cheater bug. Cheat our money. Went This Fashion to buy a pair of jeans. Sale. No trying. Non refundable. Tried it at home. It was just nice. Hope it don't shrink after washing. If not, that will be my brother's. Went NTUC fairprice before going home. Bought a bottle of deodorant =). I'm smelly.
Yesterday`Went to my aunt's house. Celebrated her birthday. BBQ. My cute cousins =). My another aunt's baby is due anytime this few days =). Maybe he will come out on 2nd May. It will be so fun and cool.
haven't started on doing my homework... I cheered with joy @ | 7:07 PM
