*.* hmm... *.*
No matter how angry you are, there is bound to have some words that you ought not to say to your friends or even 'friends'.I know that my attitude should be the same as that of Chirst Jesus.(Philippians 2:5) I also know that I should love one another.(John 15:17) I know that each of us should look not only to our interest, but also to the interest of others.(Philippians 2:4) I also know to do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than myself.(Philippians 2:3) In the same way, the spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the spirit himself intercede for us with groans that words cannot express.(Romans 8:26) Until now you have not asked for anything in My name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.(John 16:24) If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.(1 John 1:9) No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful;He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.(1 Corinthians 10:13) I don't know why(I am going to repeat this again), but I just can't stop judging. I feel very bad after judging. Who am I that I can judge God's creation? I am just a creation myself, like everybody else. I cannot judge and should not judge. Help me Lord, help me. The more I study, the more I feel that I don't know many things. This makes me loose my confidence in myself. I was thinking, "What if I could only go to a polytechnic? I would not even have a choice then."
I am so dependent on God nowadays. Everything good that happens, I believe that it is God who made it happen. Whatever bad things happen, it is a test for me and God will bring me a way out of it, and He did. He is my shelter, I can only find rest in Him. I thank Him for always being there for me. I also trust that he will help me in my O'levels. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.(Proverbs 3:5,6) I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;I will counsel you and watch over you.(Psalm 32:8) For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you.(Jeremiah 29:12)
trust & faith
I cheered with joy @ | 6:42 PM
*.* unexpected *.*
In case you people did not notice, Mdm Audra said out my name during assembly. I thought I had done something wrong or something very bad happened and it just had to be something to do with me. Well, it is none of them actually. Because my 'Today In History' "article" was selected, I am invited to go to the "opening ceromony". *claps* This certainly brighten up my day, but not for long. Physics-homework. English-found out I still have to do the morning digest in class if not in front of the whole school. History-homework. Geography-homework. Maths homework time-homework which is classwork not finished in class. NO TIME TO DO MY MINDMAPS!!! Oh well, not exactly...if I had planned my time properly, well...things might have been different. Support Junyang!!! Support Weijian!!! Opps *grins*
Thank God that Mrs Hong did not come today that we can do some of our homework time work during maths. Really lessen my burden a lot. I really need to do something about my judging spirit. Anytime anyone makes a sound, I will judge. When walking on the 'streets' looking at people, I judge again. Hate that so much. The next moment after I judge, I will feel so guilty and bad. Thanks for everyone around me for being so patient. I feel worse looking at their conduct and then mine. However, I still feel pissed. I want to forgive, but something that happens everyday makes me even more pissed. I don't know if I will be able to live one day with '3rd person' without being pissed. This is my ultimate test of patience up to this point of life. ......(devil's thoughts) God is really taking care of me. He knows things that I want even before I know what I want. IN HIS LOVE.
Sorry val if I have hurt you. I can feel that you are very angry with me. Can't blame you. I find myself more and more irritating. Only my family memebers can stand me. (At least they can) Ok. Just want to say, "Sorry".
Follow HIM I cheered with joy @ | 10:18 PM
*.* Long *.*
This is going to be a long one. Firstly, we had our class photograph taken. Everthing was ok until the fun shot. Guess what happened? I loosen my tie, thinking that I will look cool like that, but I forgot to unbutton my first button. Damn. I think I will look so freaky. This is more of a funny incident than a sad one. The next one really dampened my day. Ms Morni showed us the comments given by Mdm Audra. The way she spoke to me was someone who is very patient with others. However, when I see the written comments about me, she seemed to add another comment without telling me. She told me that I have a limited vocabulary and asked me to speak in proper sentences. She also told me that I was not very fluent in my reading and to politely ask for more time to think if I need it. She also asked me to elaborate about the 3-day camp. The comment that she did not tell me was that I did not understand the conversation. I admit that I did not really understand it, but she can just tell me and not write it down so that my classmates could see it. I don't know if I am being too sensitive, but I felt that she thought that I did not try my best at that time. Miss Morni also commented that 'this person' is really bad not to understand the conversation. As if this was not enough, I lost the notepad that was given to me today. I cannot help but pity myself.
However, some good things still happened. I got a picture of our clique drawn by tracy. I also got to meet my juniors in chinese orchestra and took photographs with them. I must still thank God for everyting.
thank God for protecting me from sickness during the 3-day camp I cheered with joy @ | 4:00 PM
*.* days *.*
Wed` probably the first time I ever finished my maths homework during homework time.
Thurs` ...
Today` racial harmony celebration and chinese o'levels listening comprehension. The clothes are so heavy and thick. I was perspiring. Later in the day, the weather was much cooler. Went mac donalds and ate mac chicken meal. Then rushed back to school to take the o'levels. The invigilator did not even check our IC. We sat there for 1/2 hour listening to the music on 92.4 FM before the listening started. The listening is ok I guess. =)
I cheered with joy @ | 6:18 PM
*.* This Way Up *.*
I thank God for letting me go on this course. Ramesh, Cherie, I love you lots. May God bless both of you and may God heal your vocal cords. I will miss you. Take care. Thanks for being part of our lives. =)
I cheered with joy @ | 6:55 PM
*.* from lizhen... *.*
Your Birthdate: May 2 |
Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.
The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.
You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.
You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. |
I cheered with joy @ | 4:55 PM
*.* chinese oral o'levels *.*
Ok, for me this day is today. I got 2 really nice teachers. They sound like they are from China. It is scary to speak in front of 2 teachers especially when they are from China. But I want to thank God for taking away my nervousnes so that I can speak properly without my voice shaking away. I want to complain in my blog some things that I don't think I would want to irritate people with. First, I spoke English! I was like thinking of what to say and I said the word "then". That was the first shock I got in the chinese orals. The second thing is that I don't know how to say english alphabets in chinese. I said
shu zi which means numbers in english and the worse thing is that the teacher double checked with me what I just said. She gave me 2 options and I think I still choose the same 'phrase' without really thinking(I answered her almost immediately). That makes me seem like I am so stubbon when the teacher gave me a chance to change what I have said. I am so regretful. After everything, I remembered that the translation for the english alphabet is
zi mu. I was like aiya. I don't know if I can get goods marks with all the mistakes that I made today. What's more is that I am the 4th one to take the oral. I think they will remember me very clearly. Well, what's done is done. I should not cry over split milk. I just have to do my best in the coming o'levels exams and not dwell on this. Thanks for listening blog =).
Ok, another thing is that I want to tell all of you robbers out there, please stop stealing. Those things you steal might not mean anything to you-since you got them so easily and need not buy them. However, the things which are stolen mean a lot to their previous owner, even if it does not costs much like a piece of drawing or a stack of notes. They need them, you don't. So please do not steal for the pleasure of seeing the previous owener's sad and wet face, or you will end up in hell. God will take revenge on those who hurt his children. So please stop stealing and return what you stole for everyone's own good. It is not to late for you to turn back now.
praying I cheered with joy @ | 4:04 PM
*.* ballon day *.*
Just want to complain. Yesterday was ballon day. I must confess, if I am the one to be approached to buy some ballons I most probably will reject. Well I am not complaining about the bad business that I had. I want to complain about the owner of the botanic gardens and the organisation team of the straits times pocket money fund. In the first place, they should have told our school that they only gave us 2 stalls to sell ballons. In that way, we would have been able to leave school earlier and that we also no need to spend so much time just to walk out of the botanic gardens. Lets just say that they don't treat us as humans. They treat us as their slaves. Although we still get to have some hours of CIP, the way that they treated us goes way beyond the treatment that we should recieve. Ahh, that's better. Those who agree with me please leave a message at my tagboard =).
tired I cheered with joy @ | 1:11 PM
