*.* bringing me closer to Him *.*
Today, the church service made me want to go to church next week. I 'forced' myself to lift up my hands during worship and when it was the time to pray in tongues, I did, which is amazing because I have not done it formally before. I don't know why, but I just cried as I did that. I don't know if it is supposed to be like that, but if it is, this means that I am on the right track to God. =D Thanks God!
Went to disciple class after ah ee's and jie serene's persuation, saying I will receive something good from God if I go, and I did. Today's 1st 'lesson' is that God has prepared something good for each one of us, that we will all be prosperous and successful in Him. Ah ee shared her vision about this issue which includes a huge chicken thigh and her reaction to it. We 'were made to' talk to God, saying we believe that we will receive the full blast of blessing from Him. Cried again and was the first to receive my lunch - chicken thigh rice. I was also the 1st to share my experience with God during my lunch time because I wanted to leave early to finish my homework.
Reached home and started colouring my japanese book (not my homework). I started doing my homework a little before 4 if I didn't remember wrongly, which is supposed to be the end time for disciple class. Lord, I apologise for 'lying' that I have to leave early to do my homework when I can don't leave early and still finish my homework. I am really sorry. Please forgive me. Indirectly, I also deprived my brother from God when he really needs it. =(
Discussed more with my parents on going to Beijing with sharon. Ended up I can only be allowed to go for tours and not go exploring on our own. This means that the whole trip is expected to be more expensive. Sorry Sharon. Smsed ah ee if we can go with her and she said can. However, if we went with her, our movements will be more or less restricted because ah ee is going there for a mission and I guess sharon won't be too happy about it. If I were to go alone with ah ee and janah, I won't mind, but going with a non-Christian friend with ah ee and group will probably be weird. Haha.
I'll just see how things goes...
Jeremiah 29:11 I cheered with joy @ | 11:27 PM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
*.* GOD *.*
My mind is still a blank. When I read the battlefield of the mind for teens, my mind either blanked out or became more corrupted. Went for disciple class last sunday and had a small talk with jie serene. Told her about that and she said that happened to her too when she read the battlefield of the mind. She said this is the devil's doing, and that I have to pray about it when reading the book.
Went to uncle hua ching's house in the afternoon. Some things I learnt.
- During moses's time, 12 people were sent to scout out the land that God wanted to give the Israelites. Among them were 2 people called joshua and caleb. 10 people came back and said bad things such as the people living there are big and strong, they cannot defeat them. However, joshua and caleb said good things such as the land is great-the fruits are very good, they should capture the land. Life is like that. God has great things in store for us, like my upcoming competition. We can win it, but I chose not to believe and be discouraged. I shall not now.
- If God is not with you, whatever you do there will be no deliverance. I can type all the lessons I have learnt from God's messengers, however no one will understand and there will be no breakthrough if God is not with me when I am typing them.
I let the kids play the erhu and the head broke. I was not angry or sad when I knew the head broke, because it was quite common. Futhermore, jie serene and my uncle promised me that they will get it repaired. However, I sat by myself after that and thought too much. I cried and it indirectly let the adults know I have problems in my life. I guess God used this incident to help me ask for help, for I have a Pharisee spirit in me. I thought I could handle everything on my own, but I cannot. Judging is my weakness too. I had a mini deliverance, but it didn't help much. I think I am hurt very deeply.
save me I cheered with joy @ | 9:19 PM
*.* school reopens today *.*
Today, I am officially released from my work commitment. Confirm going to get my pay on thursday. Bought both macroeconomics and principles of management (Organasational behaviour 2) tutorial notes for $8.20 although I had only principles of management lecture today. Japanese notes costs $4.45, which costs more than the french notes. Ended at 4 today and slept with yanning 1st at ITAS then at library. We checked out our arts appreciation tutorial room before that and realised that our rooms are especially for IGS CDS only. =) Ate dinner at design before going to the co room at 6 plus.
Self practised a while before xian yang came and conducted us. Xian yang is very scary. He had sectionals with us after the combined practice. He told us how to play and what to notice and asked us to play one by one. He was very hard on my seniors but was quite lenient with me because he knows my standard and thus have lower expectations of me. He is more hard on us than lao zheng. He said we have to practise at home. He was that frightening that I actually borrowed the erhu home to practise, which I had not done for ages. -_-
tomorrow I am supposed to go to uncle hua ching's house and practise the song God gave ah eeAll is done according to God's plan =D I cheered with joy @ | 11:58 PM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
*.* happy day *.*
Although today started out quite bad in the sense that I totally flunked on the performance today for the engineering school orientation. Furthermore, during the practice, my pitch was not accurate. However, I met tracy at tm after practice to pass her the ugly duckling comics and bought the Christian book. There is 10% discount for students! Yeah! At tm, I saw sadiq, chen pei, lizhen's friend and another temasekian. The situation today was like
peng you man tian xia. So cool can. Haha.
Thanks God for taking away all my worries =D I cheered with joy @ | 9:54 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
*.* haiz *.*
Ended up haven't bought that book. Went to look for that book yesterday in the Christian bookstore for the title to look for it in the library. The title of the song is battlefield of the mind for teens. Went to tm to the Christian bookstore. Then went to white sands to the library. The library didn't have the book, therefore I have to go and buy. Hope there will be discount for tertiary students.
Should I change my blogskin? So random.
I am worried about my future, namely my attachment being a food server at four seasons hotelGod, I give my worries to you and let you will handle everything. Let not my will but Your's be done. I have nothing to fear, for You are my shelter. =D I cheered with joy @ | 9:59 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
*.* oh well *.*
Tracy is not going out with me today already. I think I will still go tm to look for my book. =D
| Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence |
Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes.
You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time.
You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it.
Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds.
You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer. |
| What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You |
You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours.
You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.
You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it.
In relationships, you are practical and realistic. You have a romantic side, but you only let it out when it's appropriate. |
| You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One! |
Generally, you're very happy being a single woman.
And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem.
Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy.
You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man! |
I cheered with joy @ | 12:46 PM
*.* soft hearted *.*
I have to work this week on friday when I already told them I quit. They said they have not enough people and I said ok to working. That's me, but I really feel sad that there is some possibility that I have to work as a waitress at four seasons for banquets for my 3rd year attachment. The thought of it makes me shiver with fear.
Went to my aunt's church yesterday. Great. I wanted to sleep because I worked on the previous day, but the play they did prevented me from sleeping in church. I cried during the worship and the pastor's prayer. My tears kind of washed some of my filth, I think. However, I think I am more wicked after the service, something like seeing through my 'true' self.
I really feel like buying this Christian book which I think will help me in my current state. Going to see if the library has that book tomorrow. I am meeting tracy tomorrow too to pass her the comics at tm. My trip tomorrow will be very productive lol.
Dear God, I want to be like my aunt to have the honour of you helping me in miraculous ways I cheered with joy @ | 11:16 PM
*.* last week of work *.*
On thurs, I had a easy day of work because I really started work at about 9pm when my actually working time is 5pm. =) However, 1 day slack the other day very tiring. Yesterday, I worked 1 whole day and I
kena food server. Sad sia. My serving is still so slow, but I can see a little improvement from the previous time. Good news is I am quitting because school is going to start. Probably tomorrow I can go ice skating. =D
Thanks God, for everything I cheered with joy @ | 2:34 PM
*.* lessons learnt yesterday *.*
1) Practise makes perfect, therefore practising is important.
2) Do not judge people. If they know, they will feel hurt. If you put yourself in their shoes, you might do worse than them.
3) Appreciate all the help that you get.
4) Life is never easy. Do your best and you will never regret.在你心中him 占据着最重要的位置，你对 him 的感觉用 superwoman 这首歌来形容再好不过了。你相信这是上天安排的缘分，因为你深深的爱着 him 。 对于 him2 ，也许是宿命吧，虽然你也喜欢 him2 ，但是你们注定不可能在一起，就象 hen xiang shuo 中唱的一样。
weilan 是最关心你的人，而 yanning 是最了解你的人，你们两个在一起会彼此有知己的感觉。 tracy 是你的幸运星，也许会给你带来好运气的哦~!~!~!
chong lai 这首歌最能代表你现在的想法。 bei ji xing de yan lei 这首歌代表你对生活的感受。 把本页推荐给你的 36 个朋友，你的愿望--- life to be easier 就会实现，信不信由你！
This is something I did in an e-mail. Quite true about the songs and the people I guess. I put him and him2 because I don't know if someone is pulling a prank of me and because I don't really have any guys in my mind. Sad huh? Oh well, who cares? =D
cried yesterday
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