*.* dying *.*
My mind is in such a mess that I am on the verge of death. Am I carrying the cross now?
Help me Lord! I cheered with joy @ | 11:05 PM
*.* my vision =D *.*
I casually prayed for a vision because more or less I was forced to and I was so happy I did pray for it - I think. I asked for bible characters since ming hui jie jie said she got her first vision as a bible character. So I got Daniel and Job. She prayed for me and got me a Ruth. I believe that ming hui jie jie's vision of me is correct because she always hears God's word, but I couldn't quite confirm my vision.
I thought of things related to the bible characters. Job is righteous, and I cannot tolerate sins. I always feel that I am very filthy, seriously, therefore I want to be like Job - righteous. Daniel - I thought of Japanese because I am very interested in learning it. I remembered Daniel knew 2 languages at least. His language and Babylon's language. But since I already knew 2 languages which are Chinese and English, I started to doubt it.
However, Bishop Curtis prophesied over me that I am good with computers especially powerpoint (ppt). He also said that I will have joy of studying in my schoolwork. I felt really happy. What increased my joy is my talk with my aunt. She was so happy that Bishop talked about my powerpoint gift and when I told her my vision, she analyzed it for me. I believe it is God speaking, now. She said Daniel is very smart, so obviously he did some studying. As for Ruth, I must be faithful to succeed in my studying. Job is a very
sut vision according to everybody, at least for my aunt and ming hui jie jie. My aunt told me she had this vision 15 years ago and she is still working towards it. I am deeply encouraged.
Actually I was not proud of my ability to do even nice ppts. I was wondering why my aunt was so proud of me about that. That gave me happiness but it was short-lived. The Lord is good to me. He used Adeline to encourage me. She just broke the news to me that she is going to work and her job scope is doing ppt. Pay is same as mine, $6 per hour. I finally am not embarrassed about what I am doing. Thanks God. Love You. =D
I cheered with joy @ | 9:22 PM
*.* I must not give up *.*
After watching so many shows, one thing I learnt is not to give up, no matter what. If you know what you are doing is correct, just continue doing it even when others don't agree with you. I think it also states somewhere in the bible where someone keeps on seeking justice from the king. The king actually didn't care about her, but he finally could not stand it and made sure that justice is done for the woman.
In the course of life, it is inevitable to come face to face with many big and heavy obstacles, but once you overcome them, you become stronger little by little and your character builds up until you become invincible. OK the last part is an overstatement but it somehow leads to this. I know I keep on blabbering about how others are better than me and become envious and then having low self esteem. When you see someone better than you, it is not that you are just not good, it is just that the person actually made an effort to improve themselves with self disciple in action in their life. I knew that in my subconscious mind but, well all I can say is that I am lazy.
I have met up with many obstacles and I regret not giving my best to overcome it. I just cry and give it up. However, somehow I can find encouragement from the people around me, and I know God is at work. Somehow, I managed to get to this point of my life because of all the encouragement and God's help, which is better than what I am expecting. I need to change, not to give up easily when really what I am doing is right. Is that my vision? LOL. Seriously, don't know. I really don't want to have any regrets anymore in my life, and the first step is really
self-discipline which is what pastor curtis (I think that is how it is spelt) said yesterday. People
gambatte with me ba.
some day, i want to be able to write a whole paragraph in japanese =) I cheered with joy @ | 2:45 PM
*.* shows to watch *.*
I have found something to watch other than the hana yori dango 2 that cai ling told me about. There is this new anime called busou renkin. Quite nice to watch haha. A lot like full metal alchemist. Some people said it looked like bleach, but I don't think so. Haha that's it. Toodles!
I cheered with joy @ | 5:21 PM
*.* God *.*
God loves to encourage me using non believers. Seriously, it just shows how almighty He is. One incident was the one I shared at yahyobabes, where yanning was the one who encouraged me about the fb project. Another one was just yesterday. Sharon suddenly just asked me to bring my bible to the china tour which I am going with her. She said she will feel safe if I brought it along. LOL. God is working wonders and showing me His kindness in my life. Thanks God. Love You!
I cheered with joy @ | 9:08 PM
*.* new* results!!! *.*
AY 2006/2007 OCTOBER SEMESTERBBS1001 Principles of Management
B+
BCC1002 Fundamentals of Food & Beverage
C+
BCS1002 Communication Skills 2
C+
BEC1002 Macroeconomics
Distinction
BHT2014 Principles of Marketing for Hospitality & Tourism
C
GFL1003 Introduction to Language & Culture (Japanese)
A
GLA1001 Arts Appreciation
C
Though not very happy with my results, it is still a miracle that I passed FB and got distinction for macroecons, because for my coursework for macro, I only got a B+.
Praise the Lord!!!
I cheered with joy @ | 11:44 AM
*.* girl talk *.*
Yeah! My
that thing finally come le! Haha. Thanks God.
On saturday, I fell sick. Got a slight fever and cough. I was better on sunday but my head was still painful and dizzy. It is the same today.
ANDMy computer is back in action! It was back on friday night already, but I had to update stuffs and so did not change my blogskin. Now I am!!!
Read your bible pray everyday, pray everyday, pray everyday.
Read your bible pray everyday and you'll grow, grow, grow.
And you'll grow, grow, grow.
And you'll grow, grow, grow.
Read your bible pray everyday and you'll grow, grow, grow.This is not written for fun. It is true. You will grow in spirit if you read the bible everyday. So people, remember to read your bible everyday!
formular for success: PRAY, and OBEYAbout the china trip: I don't know!!! My aunt did not speak to me on sunday. I really don't know what to do! God, please shout inside my ear what should I do!
I cheered with joy @ | 7:46 PM
*.* oh ya - continuation of ice skating *.*
I forgotten to post about some people on ice skating, so now, here I am! Went ice skating with wei lian, yanning and adeline. Met tiffany, yolanda and josephine there. Tiffy introduced all of us to josephine. She is a very nice girl - patient, kind, gentle... LOL Love her so much. Thanks to everyone who actually pulled me along the ice and encouraged me - tiffy, yoyo, josephine (nemo), adeline and yanning. Thanks to wei lian who encouraged me. Haha. I am starting to get addicted to loving everyone and thanking everyone who helped me. =D
I cheered with joy @ | 11:28 AM
*.* proud *.*
I am so proud of my parents - they know everything I don't know (just a generalisation). That's why they are the ones working and I am the one sitting at home and reaching out my hand for pocket money. =)
I cheered with joy @ | 11:10 PM
*.* ice skating *.*
Yeah! Good news is that my CPU is on the road to repair and most probably I won't have to go all the way there and collect it when its done!
Yesterday went ice skating. I don't know how many times I fell down but I think it is about 10 times. I fell down at least for 2 times just because I was laughing my head off. LOL. I knew there are dangers in ice skating because I heard them before but I thank God that I didn't actually remember them clearly when I went to ice skate. When I came back, then my dad explained to be how dangerous it was and thoughts came running in my mind. I remembered that there were many times in the ice skating ring that I missed the shadow of death (not that serious lar but like maybe getting serious cuts by the all so sharp ice skate shoes) just a tiny weeny bit. I am very thankful to God by keeping me safe and also that on that day, no one got hurt that will make me put off ice skating. Oh ya and I got bruises on 3 parts of my body - serious bruises on both my knees and buttocks. However, I was still happy because of the sense of acomplishment that I can ice skate; although when people skate 3 rounds, I only skate 1 round. =)
PLUS...My aunt gave me a job! Although the details are not that there yet but ya! Haha. =)
AND...About the china trip. I seriously don't know if I should or should not go. Suddenly afraid that the plane might crash, anything bad that might happen to us in china, about probably missing church becasuse of that...
ppl keep me in prayer ya?serious training in progress I cheered with joy @ | 1:12 PM
*.* holidays *.*
Now that it is the holidays, I feel so incomplete. I don't know what to do now, except for looking for the ideal temporary job, in which I haven't even started to search for in the newspapers. Fear grips me - in dealing with people. Looking for job and calling them up, bringing my monitor to repair, having the engineer calling my handphone and I need to pick up... I can't seem to get over it. My prayer of having courage is still in need. God will and can help me. I just need to believe and trust in Him, + spend quality time with Him.
Wei lian, if u are reading this, which I seriously doubt so, thanks for agreeing to accompany me to bring my monitor and cables to repair. I don't know if I would do this for a friend because I dread going out, which is contradicting to my course that I am studying now. Thanks. Love you lots! Won't forget you like I won't forget my secondary school friend tracy.
PS: I will change my blogskin once my computer is repaired and brought back home. Pray together with me that it will be very very extremely soon!
waiting for the ultimate purpose of my up till now unmeaningful life I cheered with joy @ | 3:57 PM
*.* injection *.*
Just got my injection today together with wei lian at pasir ris polyclinic - typhoid (tyherix). Not extremely painful until you can cry, shout and scream. After the morning injection, went to bugis with wei lian, yanning and adeline. Walked, ate, took neoprints... Bought the tissue bag. Saw elieen. Went back to pasir ris mrt station, went to white sands, and found out that sakae sushi changed to hei sushi. Lame name huh. After the exams, I bought so many things with so much money. The things are the above, ear phones and 'How to hear from God'.
I am seriously struggling with my brain now and I am not winning. What am I to do? What can I do? How many times must I go through this stage? How can I win the battle once and for all. I want to know! Tell me oh Soveign Lord!
unforgiveness, judgement, unbelief, dirty sexual thoughts...
how dirty, unholy, corrupted i am
i totally hate this me I cheered with joy @ | 10:59 PM
