*.* me and only me *.*
Should I start the string of scoldings about me? I think I should. At least I should seriously find a solution to my problems, and probabaly you people out there can help me.
Irresponsible freak
Don't dare to face people
Super uber conscious of how people look at me, whether I am flaunting or just not humble
Anti-social
Judgemental jerk
Messy dork
Don't know how to great loud enough for people to hear
Smile more lar! Service industry leh!
Can just stop playing with the hair?
Take leadership! I am called, chosen and I will stay faithful.
Spend more time with God and family! Learn how to say nice things to them.
Stop thinking of wrong, unrelated things.
The list just goes on...I just know them in my head and no action is taken. What the heck am I doing now? I have a exercise partner already. Can someone volunteer to be my praying partner? I need to correct myself 1st before I can help others. Help!!!
God, please give me a prayer partner, you know what is good for me.
Let not my will but Yours be done I cheered with joy @ | 9:32 PM
*.* please *.*
Please stop complaining and laying down curses. Both my brain and my heart hates it.
just shut my mouth up I cheered with joy @ | 12:43 AM
*.* no worries pulling me down? *.*
Sometimes, I feel obligated to feel stressed and that I confess with my mouth that without God, I cannot survive. That is because I feel weird that I don't have any burdens. Not that I want to be in such a situation that I don't trust in God and keep on worrying, but I don't know if what I am feeling now is in the right will of God.
Nowadays, I keep on forgetting stuffs. These few weeks, I wanted to type something in here and I have already organised my thoughts. However somehow when I on the computer, I totally forgot everything that I wanted to type in my blog. Now, I am typing just what comes randomly into my mind.
I feel indebted to God. I did not spend enough time with Him, and yet I don't have enough time to slack for at least half a day at home watching the vcd yanning lent me. For example, I skipped church leaders meeting(when I was invited to go) to go to the gym with tracy. I didn't really feel much conviction, but I just think that I did the wrong thing. If I was given another chance to choose, I will still choose to skip the meeting. Did I do the right thing?
As I am looking at the ring on my finger that God gave me, I wonder why is this beautiful ring on my ugly finger with lots of hair? God is so perfect, yet He still loves us so much when we are so much less than perfect. God has worked so many miracles in my life especially this year, and yet I have not actually sat down once to listen to His voice(other than the praying for vision part which is only about a few minutes).
am i just using Him? i don't want to I cheered with joy @ | 12:23 AM
*.* peserverance *.*
Very important. These few days, I have a few moments stayed in the comfort of darkness. I had wanted to talk back to my teacher, not obeying my parents and many other things. Well as I typed, I have only thought of it for quite some time, but did not do it. Ended up repenting and asking for forgiveness from God and I am glad I did so. After that, I actually felt better because I did something I should and thought of things in a different light. I saw the teacher's and my parents' good intentions.
God is faithful. I have a testimony today. My accounting lecture was scheduled at 9am and I was late. I mean I missed 3 buses today and it was 8.45am on the watch already. It seemed impossible to be on time. I prayed and finally there was a bus which was 1/4 empty. Got on the bus and reached the lecture theater at a bit later than 9.05am. Guess what? The teacher just started! It seemed like he started because he saw me kind of thing. Great feeling. =)
Saw xiang xuan, wei ming, bon and agnes at bus stop today because I decided to wait for wei lian to go home together. So happy. =D
Thanks God I cheered with joy @ | 8:46 PM
*.* come celebrate my birthday! *.*
Today can be my bestest birthday! Received damn a lot of presents. My aunt or should I say God, gave me a diamond ring and she and my uncle's family gave me a gold cross necklace because gold = mature. So starting from today, I shall be a mature Christian! =D My dear cousin, Janah gave me a mickey and minnie mouse box of chocolate chip cookies, my favourite. My dear aunt, her mother, took pictures of me and her family, put them in a photo frame, and pasted the decorations on the cake they bought for me on it. So sweet~
So many people whom I don't expect also sent me birthday wishes. That made me feel so
pai seh because I didn't wish them birthday wishes and they sent me. I feel so happy and touched. Furthermore, many people gave me birthday presents too - sharon, adeline and yanning. Feel so so so happy. Thanks people.
My mom made me choose either
hong bao or birthday cake. I requested for both but she said no. This morning she gave me a
hong bao and she made it clear that she will not buy a birthday cake. Guess what, she still bought it! Mint chocolate cake haha. So today, I had 2 cakes - this one and the log garden of Eden chocolate cake with me and my future husband's figurine on it haha. Praise the Lord!
Yesterday, went with tracy and lizhen for k lunch to celebrate my birthday. They bought me a small slice of chocolate cake. I tied 2 pony tails on that day and we took neoprints. Oh ya, they gave me a birthday present too! So blessed. So I had 3 cakes in 2 days lol.
God's love for me
thanks God and my beloved people =) I cheered with joy @ | 11:45 PM
