Sunday, September 30, 2007
*.* oh no *.*
I am so convicted by the Holy Spirit to pray for all the yahyobabes especially for the YOs through daniela. Wahhhhhhhh. I cannot take it!!!!!
lol this shall be on my next to do list I cheered with joy @ | 11:04 PM
*.* love and concern *.*
Well, people do care. I love my family and my relatives. My siblings know when I need help and help me seek it when I pretended to be strong and nothing happened. They know me best and love and care for me. Thanks. =)
love them! I cheered with joy @ | 10:36 PM
*.* there is none like You *.*
There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long and find
There is none like You
Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from Your hands
Suffering children are safe in Your arms
There is none like You
touched my heart I cheered with joy @ | 10:36 PM
Saturday, September 29, 2007
*.* record breaking *.*
Broke 2 records this tues and wed with sharon, yanning, jeff, (yun qi).
TuesAte 5 pieces of chicken for lunch alone.
2 piece original chicken and 3 small spicy drumsticks
I felt so disgusted after eating. It's too much meat for 1 day, what's more it is only for a meal!!!
Wed1st time been to AJISAN
Finished 1 huge bowl of ramen, a side dish of mixed sushi and a cup of cold green tea (and also 1 'dumpling' from sharon) for lunch
Everyone's lunch
My lunch =)
Eating meat will not really fill your stomach no matter how much you eat. Nevertheless, for tues, I only ate about 3/4 of rice for dinner and no more.
For Wed, I really couldn't eat anymore for dinner. I was so bloated. Yanning fed me 2 spoonful of rice for dinner. =)
Nowadays, I find myself unable to eat alot I cheered with joy @ | 12:05 AM
Friday, September 28, 2007
*.* Love *.*
Just changed my blogskin. Very pinky and loving. My prayer, or at least my aunt's prayer for me.
If I am like Jesus, the
multitudes will run to me. But, do I even have a godly friend now? Not that I know of. Very sad huh. I've got great friends though
(people don't get angry and jealous k), as in not Christians, not under discipling. Not very healthy for me, maybe also ruining them, transferring demonic power to each other-
funny but not to be taken lightly. Almost everyone say they got friends in yyb, but I don't think so. Ha! I don't think I am refusing what God wants to give me though. Just that I am very 'surface' ba, touching the tip and not going deep down. Difficult? I don't know.
(reason yi am still single, whahahaha) Hmm, still an egg and needs someone to help me. How pathetic and weak is this? Want to do something but yet just cannot do. Totally helpless and frustrating...
All spirit, no word - blow up
All word, no spirit - dry up
Both word and spirit - grow upI am in the 2nd one. Darn pathetic.
I don't like to eat
cao seng food.
Totally hate it.
I cheered with joy @ | 11:29 PM
Friday, September 21, 2007
*.* durain mooncake *.*
Delicious! Heavenly! Woah! Yellow on both the inside and outside. Absolutely sweet!
Ichiban I cheered with joy @ | 10:37 PM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
*.* responsibility *.*
Wah!!! It is drowning me......
Holiday is like no holiday at all...
I don't like packed schedules...
Watched hairspray with adeline and weilian yesterday. The songs are very nice. =)
I cheered with joy @ | 6:23 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
*.* monsters *.*
Pride and rebellion.
I am so not concentrating.
So unwilling to change.
And my stomach is hurting.
Do I seriously need help now?
I cheered with joy @ | 11:32 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
*.* earthquake *.*
2 days ago, both my parents and my brother felt the tremor of an earthquake. I was not happy because I didn't get to experience it. The next morning, a tremor of another earthquake came. This time, I was sleeping at home and I felt it! It lasted for quite some time. At first, it was cool, after all it is my first time experiencing it. However, as it got amazingly long, fear came. Thank you God for the experience. Thank you too that nothing bad happened. =) It is a once in a lifetime.
I cheered with joy @ | 12:11 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007
*.* Allos Parakletos *.*
Please give me a good attitude.
Please teach me how to think.
Please teach me how to analyse.
Please teach me how to act.
I don't want to get pissed and swayed easily.
I don't want to keep on asking my mother to just kill me.
I cheered with joy @ | 10:22 PM
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
*.* snow white / taste sweet love *.*
Korean drama series. Very addictive. You have been warned.
Went for 1st day of work. Finally got feeling of getting close to God. =)
I cheered with joy @ | 10:38 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
*.* all about me *.*
Well, this end semester exams are not what I expected.
1) I didn't finish both papers
2) What I think will come out did not come out
In a way I was being a "false prophet". I told my friends the Spirit told me that this this will come out in case study. Well, it did not. Last time, when my friends and I study together and I just kept silent because I seriously don't know what will come out, all we studied together last minute came out. Ya, I made a serious mistake. Asked God for forgiveness so it is ok now.
Today went out with my parents and bought some expensive undergarments, a pair of sports shoes and a pair of "slippers". Today I spent easily more than $100 of my parents' money. Was quite happy today.
Still cannot forget another mistake I made. Fear of men again. Stupid me. Freako paranoid. Empty promises. Went for interview for a F&B job. During the so called interview, the manager told my friend and I all his expectations, one of which is commitment. At that point of time I think I already know I will not be able to happily comply with that. I need time alone, force myself to spend time with God because of all other things that happened earlier that shows me my distance from God. I need to seriously hear His voice full time, and know that it is He who is speaking to me. In spite of this, I promised to work. Yet, I kept complaining to everyone after the interview. What's more I am reluctant to work, finding excuses to reject the job when I could have just rejected outright during the interview. I was so afraid that the manager will call me and ask me to work. As expected, I just smsed my friend to tell her that I don't want the job and ask her tell her friend working there already to tell the manager. Freak me. I hate myself. Finding excuses that I am not supposed to work at such a young age in the first place. What shit is this?
Reading smses that my aunty forwarded reminded me of the past where I experienced the love of God through wonderful miracles like having questions come out on things that I had just revised right before the exam. Now that I have lost it, looking on the bright side, does it mean that I am going to the maturity phase where I have to eat solid food and not milk that evidently shows the love of God towards me?
I have many things to find out on my own, and the answers can only be known when I personally hear God's voice talking to me; this I sincerely believe.
come on, talk to me I cheered with joy @ | 11:58 PM
Everyone's lunch
My lunch =)