Now, I really know that the september wind is very special and unique in a physical way. I remember that the wind always blow through my kitchen window, which is currently my right hand side. However, when september started, the wind now blows through my room window, which is currently at my left hand side. Therefore, many times during the night, the fan is not switched on but my brother and I can still wrap ourselves around with the blanket. So cool!!! Haha.
Yesterday, I was almost close to tears. I bought 10 bottles of 2 litres of orange concentrate and took buses to school. In my right hand, I was holding 6 bottles while my left hand held 4 bottles. No one was there to help me. I walked quite long distances, stopping after a little while to rest my arms. Thank God the buses was there when I was near the bus stops, so I didn't get to school too late. It was then that I finally felt that I was really weak and asked God to give me strength. I also made a promise that I should help old people carry stuffs when I see that they are having difficulty doing so. I finally understand how they feel. Similarly, I also understand how weight lifters feel. My legs were so wobbly when climbing up bus steps that I felt that I was going to fall. Legs play a huge part in lifting weights too. The bus uncle's sympathetic questions made me feel happy that actually someone cared. Called jordan once I was in bus 15 to help me take the bottles from school bus stop to co room. When I saw him, I was thinking in my heart, "I am saved." I have never felt so relieved in my life except for times when I was lost.
Thank God for giving me strength. Love Him! =) I have never thought of passing this weight lifting test. Oh ya, did I mention that I was perspiring all over? Great exercise for me. Now, the joints connecting my arms to my back is hurting, so is my entire right arm.
When I was thinking of what to pray for this morning, I was thinking about all the wonderful moments that I had yesterday. I think God wants me to be joyful in Him. There was also this song in my spirit (with faith I say this) which I decided to sing it out loud, "耶和华喜乐灵现在来充满我,使我灵唱出喜乐赞美的诗歌。我的口若不发出喜乐的声音,主要兴起石头来赞美。。。" I was also very thankful for the time I spent with my aunt, nat, mich and bernice on sunday. Very fun, which also opened my eyes to inside secrets haha. Actually, they are not really secrets (you know I am very oblivious to my surroundings), but some things that all knows except me. Oh well haha, now that I know, I am very happy.
time passes so fast, I will be flying in 6 days time...
My aunt said before that God set above the rest by giving us joy. It is written somewhere in the bible I think. Yup, plus this is my vision. I am going to fulfil it now. =) I am above the rest by having the joy of the Lord in me!!!
I think I should just stop thinking that crying is what a weakling does. I know I cry a lot but I think I have been resisting to cry at the appropriate times. Oh well, I should make myself vulnerable. It will definitely hurt, but it is the right thing to do. I saw on one of my friend's msn nick: "love is about giving someone the power to hurt you but trusting they won't." He has a lot of insight. Being transparent and nothing to hide is good because I don't have to be afraid of someone else knowing the truth. No maintenance needs to be done lol.
On another note, do you realise that the words are pink in this blogskin? "Come on, just show your true self that God made you to be! You are a girl!!!" Ok I shall be miss pinky for now. =P